LOVE IS......

I haven't slept alone for the past 4 nights...and I haven't slept in my own bed for the past 4 nights






........I think I'm under a spell

KANYE WEST - HEARTLESS LYRICS

[Chorus]
In the night, I hear 'em talk,
the coldest story ever told
Somewhere far along this road, he lost his soul to a woman so heartless..
How could you be so heartless?
Oh.. How could you be so heartless?

[Verse 1]
How could you be so, cold as the winter wind when it breeze, yo
Just remember that you talkin' to me though
You need to watch the way you talkin' to me, yo
I mean after all the things that we've been through
I mean after all the things we got into
Hey yo, I know of some things that you ain't told me
Hey yo, I did some things but that's the old me
And now you wanna get me back and you gon' show me
So you walk around like you don't know me
You got a new friend, well I got homies
But in the end it's still so lonely

[Chorus]
In the night, I hear 'em talk,
the coldest story ever told
Somewhere far along this road, he lost his soul to a woman so heartless..
How could you be so heartless?
Oh.. How could you be so heartless?

[Verse 2]
How could be so Dr. Evil, you bringin' out a side of me that I dont know..
I decided we weren't gon' speak so
Why we up 3 A.M. on the phone
Why does she be so mad at me fo'
Homie I dont know, she's hot and cold
I won't stop, I won't mess my groove up
'Cause I already know how this thing go
You run and tell your friends that you're leaving me
They say that they don't see what you see in me
You wait a couple months then you gon' see
You'll never find nobody better than me

[Chorus]
In the night, I hear 'em talk,
the coldest story ever told
Somewhere far along this road, he lost his soul to a woman so heartless..
How could you be so heartless?
Oh.. How could you be so heartless?

[Verse 3]
Talkin', talkin', talkin', talk
Baby let's just knock it off
They don't know what we been through
They don't know 'bout me and you
So I got something new to see
And you just gon' keep hatin' me
And we just gon' be enemies <<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<best line>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
I know you can't believe
I could just leave it wrong
And you can't make it right
I'm gon' take off tonight
Into the night...

[Chorus]
In the night, I hear 'em talk,
the coldest story ever told
Somewhere far along this road, he lost his soul to a woman so heartless..
How could you be so heartless?
Oh.. How could you be so heartless?

R.I.P Abra




.................i love you

So last night Ebony and I went to see  Cirque Du Soleil!!!!


It was the most amazing thing I have ever watched in my entire 21 years of life..maybe an exaggeration...but it was amazing. I loved  every minute of it.  Its just amazing to see some of the things the performers can do with their bodies. My favorites were the clowns and the two acrobat girls. It was great. Before the show we walked around downtown Charlottesville which is actually quite nice. I had never been to Charlottesville prior to this and I dont know what I thought it would be like...needless to say it wasnt want I expected. It almost reminded me of downtown Richmond where you can pretty much always find something to do. There was an art gallery, different food places,ice cream shops, a movie theater and a ballet on the same strip. I was really amused by this HUGE wall in the middle of the square which was a chalk board. I wrote my name and a few other things on it...lol...All in all it was a great trip. I want to see all the Cirque Du Soleil shows now...guess that means I gotta get rid of my fear of flying, save some money and take my ass to Vegas....................

So I have decided to make my journal FRIENDS ONLY 
I didn't want to because I didn't think it was a big deal
But it is now....too many people reading it
and adding in their 2 cents when they dont need to




You know what to do.....
Leave a Message at the beep


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HAPPY NEW YEARS FOLKS!!!


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Well another year has gone by...



What have i accomplished??

1. I have a fab job that i plan to stay at
2. I have started school again
3. I still have my apartment and car
4. I have made numerous great friends that i want to take into 2008 with me
5. My family is happy and healthy


What do I need to leave in 2007??

1. TENISHA
2. My money spending habits
3. TENISHA
4. Bad relationships
5. TENISHA
6. People who bring drama and aren't good for me
7. TENISHA
8. Being lazy, I need to workout more
9. TENISHA



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.....Tonight I plan to hang out at my Aunts house...there be a lot of people coming, my mom and sister will be there...my mom will be the DD cause i plan to get fucked up actually....I should be in church or something on new years..but i wanna shake stuff up a little, get a little tipsy and not remember the end of 2007.. ya feel me!?!?.....anyway....I hope everyone has a wonderful and happy new year...this year will be one for the books, Im determined to own my destiny!! (cheezzzy I know)...but hey i can do that shit!!

School starts on Monday....i guess thats pretty cool....I LOVE CHRISTMAS!!!

its like my favorite holiday..i love giving gifts and wrapping them...i dont even want anything this year....I LOVE IT, LOVE IT, LOVE IT!!! YAY CHRISTMAS!!

Thanksgiving was pretty cool...got to see the whole fam...we went to D.C....it was cold and windy as all hell....i feeling more and more detached from Tenisha..i dont know what it is...its like when she comes around or when i talk to her on the phone...its like...why are you even here or why did i answer the phone.....its weird...probably for the better....well i gotta be at work at 8:00 tomorrow morning...peace out

Honestly....i didnt know what it would feel like to fall out of love with someone....its weird...i dont feel anything

Im going back to school...thats good i guess...i need to finish...im still doing psychology...i love that stuff...i have taken a long enough (and long needed) break....but i am still going to work..gotta keep the funds rolling in.I want to get a part time job as well just on the weekends or at night...my mother said im going to kill myself trying to do so much at one time..but i live like im a millionaire and i gotta feed my addiction for money...lol...





tenisha and I....hmmm...i dont know..dont get my wrong i love her with all my heart..i just cant take her sometimes..she gets so angry at every little thing..and that really bothers me..its weird to be around her sometimes...i wish we could go back in time and be how we used to be..i miss those days....on another note...
Black Friday is coming up...and i need money money money...i cant wait..i love a sale..lol...all i want to get this year is a new digital camera,and guitar hero...that shit is so addicting...trust me!...so i will be one of those people you see on the news for getting in a grudge match with the big manly lady because she yanked my digital camera out of my hand because i grabbed the last one.....watch for me...lol...well until next time...IM OUT!

I give THANKS to you lil' bitts for being there














--fin

LISTEN DAMNIT!!








.......Don't fucking ask me why i'm so jealous....BITCH im jealous because you make me this way...if you would stop talking to that BITCH then we wouldnt have these problems....if you werent so fucking untrustworthy then we would be fine.....Its not your problem that the BITCH got beat up and jumped...and when you make it your problem it makes it mine cause then you want to go comfort the SLUT cause she is "your friend"....FUCK that im not having it.............

You intrigue me.......











....not a lot of people do
....its weird because you dont know that I like you,just as much as you like me....but i cant talk to you

IM FREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!


YAY ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I just ate the best salad I have ever had in my entire 21 years of life!


it was mmm mmm good!!

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Thank GOSH the weekend is here


I watched White Oleander last night..that movie was one of the best movies ive ever seen....loved it!












FIN

Im trying to calm myself.......








WHY THE FUCK DID TENISHA (the ex) MOVE NEXT FUCKING DOOR,LIKE 2 APARTMENTS DOWN FROM MINE!!!!






WHAT THE FUCK!!







THE DEVIL IS OUT TO GET ME I SWEAR!!!!!!

All is well....





im awaiting my test results from the doctor.......





scary............??




....sadly yes!

Im thinking about joining an all womens flag football team......fun?

Im just mad i guess...that fucking bitch...i just cant believe that,that bitch is fucking with "GUYS" now...that shit just blows me...its like whoa....so uhh bitch you have been lying to me,your friends..and everyone else...i guess its still true that some girls just like to tell people they are gay or lesbian just to get attention...damn..i thought that was left in high school....bitch got me good too...lol...so yeah i made an appointment at the clinic for the 17th...gotta be careful when you lay down with ditry whores....some people just dont know who they are....its all good though...it takes time...i dont even wish anything bad on her..because that would be immature of me....so Tenisha wherever you are....hope you getting some good dick boo boo!!!!





::::just breath::::

FUCK IT!!